I’ve an unclean room, unorganised and physically limiting wardrobe; unfinished projects, a specific hat that urgently needs to be made by April which I’m afraid to approach; a love for a dance in the extreme minority with little ways to further it, recent loss to make me wonder why I bother trying, a city that doesn’t care for what I do, a lack of direction; day-to-day responsibilities building up, walls closing in; feeling overwhelmed and alone, stress enveloping me.
New Year’s Resolutions
But to set goals for a single year is a foolish thing to do. So while these will be specific to the more immediate future, it won’t be a big deal if I’ve achieved minimum completion of these resolutions by 2015.
- Be more of a gentleman.
> I feel like I could improve in this area greatly. Open more doors or allow others through first, offer my seat when there are no others available, be less of a jerk (see below), take my hat off inside (with commonly accepted exceptions), more doffing of hats.
- Be less of a jerk.
> I tend to sport a sarcastic sense of humour, which often includes responding to people’s requests with “no, because I don’t like you”. While some people get it, other do not, and I’m sure there’s some things I say which are less easy to interpret as untrue. While I perhaps wish to not dispose of this entirely, perhaps I could attempt to tone it down and not jokingly be so rude, as it can often perpetuate negative friendships.
> Improving in dancing should be relatively inevitable. Though I’d like to work more on my social skills in this regards, like asking more people to dance who I wouldn’t normally dance with. Show some new people how to dance Twenties Partnered Charleston so that I have more of a community to dance that style with. I would also like to become more confident in my Lindy Hop, as I tend to be hesitant to knowingly accept a dance in this style (with exceptions of a few select people), and this mostly comes down to my own personal confidence with Lindy Hop.
- Make and preferably sell hats.
> I’ve been stocking up, it’s high time I pick up the remaining required tools and materials, and get down to creating.
- Create other new things.
> It’s not all hats here. Make some clothes. Use some of the patterns I have. Alter some clothes so that they fit better. Make some more boutonnieres.
- Get back into costuming more.
> I’ve got some projects I’m working on here and there, and it’s probably about time I get ‘em finished and wear something new and cool to a pop-culture convention or other costuming event.
- Further education.
> The Certificate III (I think) In Millinery at TAFE shall probably finish sometime this year, and regardless, it would be worth looking into another course to further expand my skills. Preferably something where I can create something physical.
> I want to go somewhere overseas soon. Wanting very much to go to Napier in New Zealand, for their Art Deco Festival in February. Didn’t really prepare last year, and now it’s getting too late for it to happen this year. So my sights shall be set on 2015. I’d also like to travel to the United States mostly for dancing, but that’s far less immediate.
- Try something new or different.
> I don’t know what, but I’m not just talkin’ about trying a new flavour of soda (though I should do that too). Maybe it’s high time I look into knitting, try circus classes to improve my interest in physical comedy and mime, or investigate dressing a little more foppish and attending a Lolita event.
- Breathe life back into my Tumblr.
> I’ve got 323 drafts (mostly posts which are pretty much tagged and ready to be posted, just a matter of when or what order), and 1,861 liked posts (mostly posts which I’d like to reblog at some stage). I tend to put more effort than I should into my posts and reblogs, so it’s somewhat of an effort to throw posts up here. Hopefully I can get the ball rolling again sometime, and get this thing churning out a colourful internet collage of my likes and interests soon. Watch this space, I’d s’pose?
And I guess that’s about it, though I may have missed something. Some of these should be easier and more straight forward than others, and are bound to happen, while others may take much more effort on my part. We shall see…
Hopelessness is I.
So close. Yet, so awfully far.
bergii asked: Incredibly Punctual.
Now if I didn’t know better, old sport, I’d think this was that newfangled ‘sarcasm’. Good thing I don’t know better…
Are you by chance mad, bro-chap?
bergii asked: DON'T L:ISTEN TO HER YOU"RE RUBBISH
That may well be true… but Jo, you’re drunk, go home.
Anonymous asked: Silly boy, you're awesome. Quite unique actually.
feinnabot asked: I like ya, Blakemus. You're good.- Jenn.
Bless, Jenn. You’re quite tops too.
Rambles of an Overwhelmed Blogger
So today I’ll be getting on a plane to Melbourne for a swing event this weekend. I’ve never traveled independently out of the state before, and I’ve yet to visit Melbourne. It’s all a very interesting and likely positive step in a swell and exciting direction, but it’s still quite alarming.
I’ll be gone for about five days, returning Tuesday afternoon. I’ve got Friday, Monday, and possibly Tuesday (prior to getting ready to leave) free, with Saturday and Sunday occupied by swing.
I’m hoping to at least spend some time with a performer friend of mine, who I’ve previously taken a private in physical comedy and mime. Other than that, I’m feeling a little overwhelmed as far as what to do. I’ve had friend suggest to me some stores and key locations worth checking out, but it’s all been a lot to take in at once. I suppose it’ll work out. Just visiting a city I’ve never been to before, and wanting to make the most of the few days I’m there. It’s all a little stressful. Though perhaps I worry too much.
As it happens, my queued posts ran out yesterday, for I couldn’t find myself inspired enough to organise more to add (which is a pity, as there are many waiting to be added). As such, I’ve decided that perhaps I shall take a temporary break from posting, at least until I get back from Melbourne (and then find myself in the mood to sort through some posts).
In the meantime, I’ve decided I’d also like to get some opinions. Your opinions. You see, I’m interested in how people perceive me, what they think, and how they would define or describe me. If you’ve noticed, there’s a lot of “me” in all this, it’s all quite me-centric (what’d you expect from my blog?).
It’s mostly come around of late as I’ve had a couple of people describe me as one thing (which I shall not identify, but know that it’s nothing particularly serious), while I would not describe myself as that particular thing and would perhaps prefer not to be identified as such. So I’m intrigued; it makes me wonder if I come across in ways that are unintended, either visually or otherwise.
So long story short (and if you’ve even read this far), send me your opinion of me, here!
I welcome either positive or negative (preferably constructive criticisms, of course). Just honest opinions, so I may better understand how I am seen by others.
I’d say it’s preferable to “ask anonymously” in this instance. Oh, and you can still follow this link and send opinions to me even if you don’t have a Tumblr account. I’m looking forward to reading your opinions and gaining a better consciousness of who I may be.
LOOK HOW HAPPY HIS ONION MAKES HIM
A man and his onion